Current mood:	crappy
Current music:	BAMBI!!

Thoughts
Sometimes I wonder if there is such a thing as having such low esteem that you don't make stupid choices not because you are strong, but because you are weak and don't want to put yourself in that position. Sometimes I wonder if that is me.

When I'm alone I am a lot more intellect in my thoughts than when I am around others, and that is upsetting. There are times I wish to express things or feelings and I just can't because I don't know how to verbalize it into terms others can understand. So I say a whole lot of cheesy to lame things and I'm afraid I end up looking foolish. A lot of times I'd like to put these thoughts in my journal, but its just too difficult to understand.

Also this problem with making friends is really bothersome. Everyone likes me and talks to me, but I'm still confused on how people actually start hanging out. Maybe if I did something other than sleep and work I'd have more opprotunity, it could be easier, but sometimes I find it hard even to wake up.

I can tell that I've been feeling down lately everytime I walk around the house, it's a mess. I have to do dishes and pick up some books I have laying around. I just barely have the enthusiasm to do so. Now that ive made that statement, I'll probably do them tomorrow after work.

In about a month I start my summer course (Animation). I will have 5 other students in my class, and it cost me 771$ for just this one class. It better be fun and exciting and darn well worth it. Anyway, Bambi is currently on TV and I feel the need to watch it.