Current mood:

scared

So I've been having my period constantly for over four months. It varies in heaviness, but it has been heavier than ever before. There are a lot more gross details that I will not explain out of consideration for anyone who reads this. I've been looking online for possible reasons why I always get my period for so long, and why I can't remember a time since I've been out of high school where I have had a regular cycle. The results I found are frightening. It could be a tumor, it could be just some fluke accident in my system, or it could be cancer. Technically I should call a doctor and get tests done ASAP. Realistically, I can't afford it. I have absolutely no healthcare and I don't even have enough money to know how I'm going to pay my rent next week. And I'm scared. I called my parents inquiring what they think I should do, and they said they didn't have any idea. They don't have money either. I don't know who to go to so I could seek health. I applied for government assistance, but apparently there is some kind of waiting list. And I have school. If it does turn out to be something, what am I supposed to do about school. And when I save up enough, Ill have to go to the doctor alone. Can I handle it? I've never been sick since I've been out of high school and therefore have always had a parent with me at the doctors. I just don't know what to do. My life just never seems to pick up.

On August 11th, I will be giving up internet and tv until September when I can fork over some cash. This is mainly because I cannot afford it right now, plus I think I'd like to live my life without the aid of this technology. Besides, there is always the computer labs on campus. I will still post every so often. Hopefully they will be more upbeat. sorry@!